And I´m kinda in the same (genetic)boat too.
The “buck stops with me” and I actually never was that depressed about it either.

And yeah, those bastards really are doing a number on us with this constant social programming. Pretty much from the crib through our parents, who themselves were mostly unreflective victims of it too.
But again, if “they” wouldn´t manipulate us we couldn´t wake up from it. So I wonder who after all IS “the Master/Power That Be” behind it all?

Heard of this book: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Antifragile:_Things_That_Gain_from_Disorder
Maybe I should give it a read, but I´m probably already living it.