Wimminz – celebrating skank ho's everywhere

It’s one of those things, as I was saying to a mate who is starting his own business, you got to shit or get off the pot.

So I’ve bought a laser, it’s not a desktop model, it weighs half a ton, so it’s at the bottom end of the industrial scale of things, and I go and collect it in a few days.

Being brutally and scientifically honest, at this point *everything* else is pure speculation, and there’s the rub, and the basis for this post.

Yes, I’d like to earn good money with it, I’d like to grow it into a good business, I’d like to think that as a business it is viable and fulfils a niche and can provide good service to potential customers, I’d like all kinds of things, but, that’s all crystal ball gazing, that and a buck will buy you a coffee.

Yes, it’s a big lump, getting on for the size of a very compact car, and expensive enough to purchase a very good low mileage used car, or a small new one, but that is another tale all by itself.

Could I have bought something smaller / lighter / cheaper, hell yes, but those things would have been less capable, both in terms of the maximum size of material, and maximum thickness of material, and indeed overall ability, so yes, I could play “safe” and buy something smaller and lesser, but would that have been a small initial step on the path, not too painful if it all end up with a big fat nothing, or, would the small size and capacity and ability itself being the undoing of it, there is a difference between a small step, and a step too small to have a chance.

There is also the thing, I could have spent the same money on a car, and said ok, here is my private hire / taxi business, at least if that business doesn’t work, selling a car is relatively easy…. there are a lot of potential buyers out there.

There is also the question of financing, I’m literally wiping out all my savings to do this, and will still have three fairly significant monthly payments (significant = more than rent on my man cave) payments to make, but come January 2015 I will own it outright, no payments or debt to service, again, is this a good and sensible thing as opposed to going to the bank and financing it over 5 years, it’s a moot point, because the reality on the ground is not so much that I chose to finance it this way, so much as this is the only avenue open to me.

See, that there is another slice of life, you’d sit there and think about setting up a business, and looking at all the different ways you can in theory finance it, but the reality is going to be closer to my situation, you are going to have one way and one way only, if you are lucky, so you better pray it is a good way…

Wiping out all my savings and living on thin air for three months while I clear the balance is a good way, because come January 2015, there isn’t a big empty financial bucket that I have to fill up with sales every months to repay financing before I make dollar one for myself… the way I’m doing it will be tough, very tough, but it’s not for long, which means it is not for long to temp fate for some other shit to come along and screw things up.

There’s the other thing, what are my savings doing for me now, sure, they give me the ability to buy this thing, or a motorsickle, or pay my rent and so on for a few months, but that is all theory, in practice that money is sat there doing nothing, in theory it could all be devalued tomorrow or sequestered by the state or wiped out by a failing bank or stock market crash.

If you add in the whole question of possible future earnings from this thing, and how the various possible future paths for the economy affect that, and so on and so forth, you get that oh-god-my-head-is-full-of-cotton-wool feeling I have talked about before, that feeling that is your brain telling you that you know you cannot work this out in your head.

You either take the chance, or you don’t. Suck it and see.

So come say March 2015 I’ll be sat here not saying anything, because it all went horribly wrong and an internet connection is a luxury I cannot afford, or I’ll be sat here with a wondrous machine that is getting zero fucking commercial use, so much for that brilliant idea smartass, or I’ll be sat here saying well, that all went a lot better than I expected, wish I had bought one of the bastards 12 months earlier.

Hostage to fortune time, you bet.

I’m trying to better myself, I’m trying to improve my lot, I’m trying to do it as safely as I can, while not doing it so safely that it severely limits my chances of success.

I may well fall flat on my fucking face.

Sure, I could have left the money in the bank, or bought another motor-sickle, or spent it on whores, or whatever, but, I’ve always been interested in lasers, and, you know, I just know I would always be wondering…. what if….

There is also the observation, only a single man could even consider doing this, spend x replacing every stick of furniture in the house and new white goods in the kitchen, or spend x on a big boy’s toy that sits out back in the workshop…. oh yes… grins..

I dunno, time will tell, I have made myself a hostage to fortune and my humiliation or otherwise will be public enough… who knows, I may start selling edge illuminated acrylic Achtung Herren signs… lol